Comet in my life

     Just last year before my year 1 semester 2 begin, I met a comet in my life. I never knew that this comet had a great influence in my life. She was the first to teach me that life is hectic especially when you are a ev student and a event committee. I had the pleasure to meet this comet.

     Like a comet leaving trails of dust along the path they travel, she left her footprint in my life. I know I can't do anything in my power to help her and how she helped me but I truly want to tell her how grateful I am to have her as a friend and as a senior.  She taught me a lot. She nearly gave up on me but she didn't. She did the most amazing thing to me which is buying a cake for my birthday as I didn't had birthday cake for the past 2 years. Its the simple things she do make me happy and glee the whole day.

However, I don't know how to tell her these in her face although I am kinda extrovert. I want her to know that she is amazing and I want to thank her so much but I don't know how.

    All I could tell her that she is amazing and she is definitely not a failure. I know that she is stressed up and she wants recovery time but when I see her so frustrated and sad, I kinda feel the same pinch as she does. But always remember my friend, you are truly the best and one of a kind. If somebody don't appreciate you, its their loss. I am happy to have my small infinities with you and I do hope you all the best in fyp presentation. You can do it because I look up to you and you never did fail in my eyes. I maybe what you call an alien in studies but when it comes to EQ, you surpass me much more. I am again truly grateful to meet a comet in my life as a comet only pass the earth every 76 years and I had the chance to meet it and it was shining bright by then.

The silent ones

     Have you notice that the silent ones in the class had most of the problems in the world but they hate to bring it all out to the world? I used to be one of the silent ones trying my best to keep my dark secrets from the world. I have always thought and taught by the society that silence is golden. But is it really golden?

     Silence is actually the most powerful scream in the world. I don't mean the kind of silence like not talking to anybody outside but in social media every 10 minutes you see a post or a tweet from them. The kind of silence I mean is hiding all the pain and frustration inside your heart and faking a smile to the world even in social media. I always tell my friends that facebook is not a confession page. Once you press the post button, everybody will know. My friend and I actually came out with a theory regarding this obsession of writing your anger, frustration and sadness on facebook. We concluded that these people are those who wants sympathy from others. They don't know what is the meaning of keeping to yourself.

    Let give a case study! Mr. Z has an obsession in Facebook to post things. Things he post in facebook are like
" I don't care if you score higher than me. I will keep this in my heart and I will not care about your result. "
and normally you can see with a hashtag " #notcareadamnthing". See the irony in it?
If you didn't care from the start why post and gloat to hundred of facebook friends you have.

    Back to the silence ones. I recently met 2 guys who used to be me. They had so much in their heart and I didn't expect that they had so much kept. I always thought they were cheerful and happy. They are the true silence ones. I tried my best to help them. Give advice to them and try to show that the world is beautiful and not a place that they should be afraid. If any of the silence ones is reading this, please remember the world is beautiful and its not a scary place. Life has its ups and downs. Sometime silence is golden but try to release some of those aches in your heart to somebody you trust. You will feel much more relieve and I believe you will find that your life will be more meaningful!

Sweet innocent child

    Just another bright day, Jane went to a field. With the grass under her slippers, cotton candy cloud above her and the wind blowing to her. It was a sunny day but it wasn't scorching hot. She walks further into the end of the field. She saw a young girl with a white top and a red skirt and red suspension over her shoulder around the age of 6 to 7 years old. It remind her of the girl who look like the Dr. Black assistant character. The girl was looking for something. Jane went closer and closer to her. She turned around and with a big smile on her face and ask Jane " Have you seen my butterfly?" Jane told her " I haven't seen any butterfly around this field." Jane proceeds and asks the young girl why she was here? The girl answered " Because I follow a butterfly and why are you here then?"

     Jane was puzzled and she didn't know why she went to the field that day. Deep down in her heart, she knows that she wanted to escape reality just a minute. To breath from the suffocation of her workload. The girl ask Jane to accompany her to a tree. She wanted Jane to sit under a shade of a tree as it was cooler there. Jane quickly follow the girl. The girl ask Jane to sit down and just enjoy the shade.

    Suddenly, a butterfly appear in front of them. " That's the butterfly I followed" said the young girl with the widest smile a girl can have on her face. She ask Jane to look at the butterfly. Jane told the young girl why she was so amazed by such a small butterfly. " Don't you think that the butterfly is unique" said the young girl. "Nope, this kind of butterfly is always appear at my house garden" replied Jane. The young girl ask Jane to hold the butterfly and catch it with the palm. Since there was no harm, Jane did as told. Jane couldn't feel the butterfly. She told the girl that she felt nothing and the girl told her to open her hands. Once she open her hands, the butterfly left. The girl start to look sad and wanted to find the butterfly. Jane got a little pissed off and scold back the girl and said that she shouldn't have ask her to do so.

    After scolding her, Jane quickly find the butterfly. While finding for the butterfly, the girl stop and was amazed by a grasshopper. She looks at the grasshopper and then was so amazed by it. She suddenly said " why can't life be simple. Be happy with simple things. Why must my family always fight?". Upon hearing this, Jane told the girl that don't worry and that the young girl can find her whenever she is sad. Jane promised the girl that she will be there for her as what she saw in that young girl was the younger self of her. She used to be this innocent, pure and joyful. But all those change with the problems in her life. The girl cried and hug Jane tightly. Jane hug her too in return and she cried as she feels that this girl used to be her and she knows the pain of undergoing it. She promised the young girl that they will brave through the cruel world together. The hug was warm and it was so long she had such a hug.

    In reality, Jane and the young girl is one person. They are stuck together. The young girl was a representative of the old Jane. To love herself, Jane must love the inner child in her. This young girl is in Jane she also wants love. All Jane need to do is to understand, listen, never blame or hurt, give good praise and love to the inner child of her to love herself.