Introduction about me !!

Well, today i felt like introducing myself. well i am just a very simple girl who actually have some hatred to perfume and fashion items. I am those kind of girl who doesn't like to go to shopping or if i had to go i would be in the food section hehe. GO FOOD!!

     To tell you all the truth, I am the 'manly' type of girl. I love playing pokemon cards and collect them. I play boy games like basketball that normally girls dont play. Plus, I am also the type of girl who loves to play rpg. FYI rpg is role-playing games. I do have an account in League of Legends. I love using Miss Fortune, Ahri and even Brand. I love mages and support cause normally that what i am good at. I play left 4 dead just for the fun of it. I love killing zombies and seeing how they die. sorry maybe too violent there hehe.
   
     Besides that, my life purpose is to go to the third world country and build homes for them. this is because of my name. i was given a name that wants me to be a useful person in life, community and maybe the world. My name ends with 'ai'. Well many might say it will get love or something like that but the real true meaning of that 'ai' is a kind of herb that is used in the chinese medicine. Now you guys must wonder why i was given such a funny or weird name. Well, its because my grandmother wanted me to be useful for the society and my country. This is because the name 'ai' is a herb that helps cure disease and face many difficulties being accepted into the modern western medicine. my grandmother wanted me to be useful and at the same time able to resist the daily life challenges in life. Seriously, that is why I want to contribute my energy to save the world therefore i studied environmental engineering. Before i die on my deathbed, i want to remember the people i helped. I dont want to remember how much money i earned but that my energy was well spent in somewhere.

     I know that i have no luck in love. thats for sure! any guys look at me, they will think i am just an overweight girl that is quite barbaric but i dont give a damn cause this guys are not worth it! if they truly love you or even admire you they see the inner beauty of a miss independent like me. well, anyway i dont hope for love as it is not really my life purpose. I would not find for it but let it come to me naturally cause those are the true one. I will never be those whore that find love and risk their sanity for it.

Well that all but before i leave i would like to share with you guys neyo miss independent..... cause i love his lyrics hehe

To miss Teng and Siau

To be very frank with you all, I actually am really glad that you guys are my friends. Though you guys might be more innocent than I expected but I love you guys. Wait don't take it so literal. I love you guys as friends. Again to remember how you guys its kinda few sweet moments in Utar PJ. Okay let me start from the beginning. when i first met ms teng, i thought she was a very (sorry to use) nerdy student. she studies excellent perform excellent in class. i remember the first day, i sat next to her in ms bong class. she was a very attentive student but i was the total opposite. somehow and sooner, we got to know each other and i know why she tries to study so hard. Her parents want her to excel well so she tries her best. her principle in studying is completely different from me. i want to study so i can be more independent in life and i want to help the world in the best way before the grim reaper comes and find me. i used to laugh at how funny and innocent she was. sooner we form a study group. we try our best to study but as you guys know it is truly impossible to ur study with a great fren. thru her i met ms siau. this girl makes me chuckles every single time i am with her. this is cause no matter what joke i had on her, she will not retaliate me. she would just laugh with me. its nice to see that people let you laugh the way you are especially when your laughter is different from how society presume a girl to laugh. confession: i laugh quite barbaric. she is quite beautiful actually but i dont know why guys havent dated you. Seriously guys what the hell is your problem? Ms siau still talk to me. actually she inspire me to write this blog when i was feeling angry towards myself and the coursemates i kinda have. i only realized how much writing i mean blogging soothes my mind but i only get to know you guys in such a short time of my life. i hope we can see again. its been 5 months since we met. thought i have not met friends like you in kampar but i know in this world both of you meant a lot to me as friends. if either one of you are sad or angry or even felt betrayed, i hope you can read back my post about both of you and just SMILE!!

3 years of not touching blog. im back

Hi, i am back after 3 years of not touching the blog i just feel like it since my great friend ask me whether i had a blog or not.. well my studies is now great. i am doing what i really love. thought some may think environmental engineering is boring but to me it is truly fun. friends you can say it come and goes but the true one stay in your heart. you hear that miss siau you are really a great friend. well if you wanna stalk me and hear some entertaining story from me you can come find me here in my blog. will update things. i promise i will try and expose my real true feeling in this blog. its all raw emotions. for all the hater , f*** you. i know i am an emotional ass but i dont seek attention at all like the bitch in my course. i only tell this blog to my true friends and yes i do wish they can be with me all the time but this is life. like wat my mom says this is life you gotta live it. i remember a proverb, you were born with pain from your mom, you die with pain, pain follows you but it is how you revert them. so yea life!

4 delphi

yesterday i went to facebook and found out that her friend knew which class she is sitting next year. i was anxious to know my class so i went to school today. there were many cars surrounding the school because it is orientation day for the form 1. i quickly went to the announcement board and look for my name. i saw it , i was in four delphi. then i search for kimberly's, she was in 4 explorer with rachel and leena i told her the news and she was happy to know she thank me a lot then i search for lim yen you , a pal of mine since standard 4. she was in the same class as mine. i called her and she though i was joking but then i asked her to be my sitting pal next year and she say yes!!

happy new year to all of my readers. today everybody will do their new year resolution. yes. that wish list thingy. we have some rough year in 2009 so lets not be a sourpuss and enjoy our new year. that 's all

the result day!!!

what a day!! i got up and my hand was trembeling with fear about my result. i even took the wrong clothes to wear. i found my myself in school after a blink of an eye. i did not know that the result day would be so fast. then the teachers gather us in lines. datin told us that our school have 132 students who got straight A in their pmr. all of us scream. then i took my result while trembling. i had this deep relieve in my head about the result. i saw 7A and 4 cemerlang kerja kursus. then i ask other people and most of them got 7A.

dong zhi festival

{~dong zhi

well, today is one of the important day of the Chinese calendar. yes it is the dong zhi festival. today everybody in the entire world is going to celebrate this celebration. we have to eat it this. once we eat this, we grow one year older. this food is cooked differently in other place. some cooked it for dessert others for dinner. it a celebration which children likes it. dong zhi can be combined with many ingredient but my favourite is gula melaka. the gula melaka will melt in your mouth. dong zhi also symbolises reunion which many people will go back to their parents house to eat this delicious delicacy. some people would put dong zhi inside a soy bean drink to enhance the sweetness. that all for today. happy dong zhi day!!