The world is always dangerous

     From young, my mother taught me that the world is evil sometimes. The world is a dangerous place and my parents trained me for years to face the outside world. The world is actually very peaceful but many people complicate it. People deceive, betray and turn to soulless person to get what they want but not what they need. But I am no here to break your hope or something like that, I am trying to tell you that the world will always have these sort of two-faced people. 

My friend was very active in animal shelter projects that she contributed most of her time for it. I used to help her in some of her project. There was once when one of the biggest event finish, she gave me a souvenir to remind me that I had done my best for the abandoned animals that time. Along that souvenir, she gave me a message and it was written on the souvenir. It said “The world is dangerous not because of those who do harm but because of those who look at it and didn’t do anything!”

There was once a car accident where a young girl was knocked down a long time ago in China. But there was nobody who wants to save her due to this she died when rush to the hospital as it was too late. It was reported that the reckless driver hit and ran and almost 20 passerby ignore her. The world is dangerous not because of those who do harm but because of those who look at it and didn’t do anything!

The time I got this souvenir, I cherish it as it finally brings a purpose in my small life! I knew I need to do something in my life as I only live once. That was when I decided to pursue environmental engineering because nobody is defending our mother earth as big corporates reap her apart to get profits for their business. 

The flute player

I am having a little bit of the writer block today.  Maybe I will just tell you a story. A love story!

                It started with a tune.  A tune where represented the union of two lovers from the past and present day. In their past life, the girl was a peasant girl and the boy was a swordsmen. He was the legend of his time. He was someone whom the community respects a lot. But the girl was just a peasant girl whose feet were not bounded. For a girl with unbounded feet, she will remain as a slave. The boy and girl met in the mountains. The boy was searching for some herbs while the girl was carrying pails of water down the mountain. The boy was playing a tune with his flute after searching for the herb for a long time.

The girl heard the tune and became curious. She tried to find the main source of the flute. She found him but also invited some guests along. Those guests are no friend of man. They are wolves. The girl screamed and ran away from the wolves. The flute player tried to save the girl but the wolves already left a large scar on her face. Her face was bleeding profusely. She cried and dare not return home as she knows her master will hurt her. The flute player took sympathy and took her into his family. She was known as the wolf girl in his family. Sooner the flute player begins to admire her beauty within. He knew he couldn't be with this slave girl but his heart was already with her. He tried reasoning with his family but all failed. He asks the girl for a hand in marriage but the girl knows her duty. He tried explaining to her that he love her for many times and ways.

 Finally, the girl accepted him as she had a crush on him all the while after he saved her. They ran away and started a new life but tragedy struck when they met a witch that envy their love. The witch put a curse on the flute player and if the flute player meets the girl, her scar will start to ache and pain is just not tolerable. The girl doesn't mind the pain as long she can meet with him but the flute player couldn't bear hurting her. He ran away and the night before he told the girl who was sleeping by his side that he will meet her in the next life. The flute player told her that love is not about meeting each other but making sacrifices. In the next life, he says that he will play their tune again. The girl cried in sleep after the flute player left their house. 

My other half

Hi hi, I am back from my study semester!! XP Although I haven't finished my exam but I really felt relieved that my CGPA paper is done. I have lots to tell you guys but first! During the semester, I was sad as I keep seeing many of my friends finding their love ones and I am stuck with myself. I was emo-ing half of my semester. My housemate ask me why am I so desperate for a relationship? Well, sometimes it’s nice to have someone who shares your happiness and sadness. But when you are single, you have nobody to share too. This semester, I really felt alone. I felt the sadness from being alone just like an astronaut stuck in space without anyone to help. 

I was sad until I met a tarot card reader. It must be destiny to see the tarot reader as that day was the first time I went to block K to eat. There is where I met the tarot card reader. I was sad and sick of being alone. I somehow felt like asking this tarot card reader. All the while, I never believe tarot card reading but this change me!!

          Somehow, I felt a force telling me to go try her service. So, I just try. To my amazement, the thing she says about me in the past was so true. Well, she told me that in the past, I search for such love but at one point I was hopeless. She knew until now I had no boyfriend. And in the present she knew I was finding it again as my peers found their other half! I tried not being amazed but deep down I was shocked.

          She also told me not to worry as my other half will be there when I am financially stable. She told me that my other half will think me as a gift from god, an angel that descended down from heaven and I will be his main point in his life. He is a very mature man and a career-minded man. He will be the exact character as me! He is a guy that wants to start a family with me. I was blushing all the way because I knew that someone is there for me!

          Due to this factor, I felt alive again. I knew that I can get true love although I am ugly and fat. I was just happy since that day. No more emo days. She also advises me that if I wait for him, I can get him. I will wait for him!! Wherever you are my other half, I can’t wait to spent an eternity with you.

         

Sorry girl!

Well I am back again, another week. I had my hands full this time of the sem. assignment, reports , comittee meeting and so much more. Well I just wanna talk about two kind of relationship I personally tries to give advise about. Let me tell you exhibit A. He and his girlfriend had been dating since lower six until now. But when I am near him , he will always frus as his girlfriend dont love him as much as he loves her. He was ban to visit her more than 2 weeks. Her girlfriend is a very independent girl and like a large personal space like how a single woman enjoys it. Problem is she has he. I felt pity for the boy as I can see that he loves her more than she loves him and he is trying so hard to get her love back.

Exhibit B is the contrast of two person personality. my friend and her boyfriend had been together since 1 year ago. They just broke off this week. I actually predicted this ending as the boy was controlling the girl and the girl has a bad temper. I know it was the end because the control by the boyfriend was too much and boys or girls no one like to be controlled in life. Thats all and I am happy to say that I am single till now. But a person did ask me "is it because of this differences, you don't dare to start a relationship?" I lied to him and say no but I know it is true.....

People you may meet!

     Today, I would like to dedicate this post to the person I used to meet and befriended with but now is a heartless attention seeking bitch. Well, to be frank I don't give a rat ass about this girl but she annoy me too much till I need to tell you how this girl acts in front of everyone to release some steam.

     I met this girl on the first morning of my semester. It was just after a walk with carol. I was quite nervous for the first day of my class. That was the beginning of a troubled friendship. Well, let me explain. This is because I and she are like water and fire. Completely different in personalty and style. I am the gamer girl who studies hard and doesn't give a rat ass about styles, boys and most important I don't act in front of people. But she on the other hand, she thinks that Environmental Engineering is the easiest engineering course so therefore she took it and flirt around. Well she let boys touch her and even let them know how sad and pathetic she was being toyed by her boy crush.

     At first I just think she is a slut but sooner I discover she is in a higher level of bitch level. This is because she plays around with boys. Manipulate them in every sense. Those boys are more stupid. She acts like she is so damn innocent. She kicks me out of the conversation. But that was not the worst of all.

     The worst of all was that she keeps arguing with me and finding fault with me. I had enough. I just ignore her. Then it became worse. She now gossip on how bad I was and how I treated her. But when people ask, I would always give a logic explanation. Well there is a lot of story of her. Maybe I just tell you 3 of them.

    The first scenario is that I was the stationmaster. My game was set that the right side of the team will do set 1 first and the left side will do set 4 first. Problem is set 1 is harder. Her team got set 1 and she kept whining on how unfair it was until even the gathering time. It was such an embarrassment as a 20 year old girl can act as a 8 year old. I just tell her facts but she say I was wasting time. No other team complain about it but she kept whining about it.

    Then the second scenario is when I got better result than her. Instead of being a true friend and congratulate me. She say I didn't deserve the result.

     the third will be on the day we play a killing game. she was the killer. I was killed first. so I shouted yes when she died that round. She said I was unfair again. But the thing is many people also had shouted out yes by me. So, whats your problem bitch?!

In Kampar peepz!

    Well, I am back to kampar! Sorry for not updating the blog for a whole week i think. I am so sorry!! I recently join as one of the helper for the icebreaking team in my university. Every night I had to go for meeting and test game therefore I couldn't have any energy to write a post about it until now.

    I become one of the station master for a game. That game was look simple when I choose it but it turns out to be more difficult sooner. During the first test game, my station couldn't handle the crowd control. Though I blame myself but I knew some of the problems are cause by the facee who got so excited till they actually broke all the rules. Even the second game test was the same till the extend I had to yell and they call me rough. But to me as a facee, you should learn to control yourself.

    But after all those, I still love the yum cha time where all facee, station master and helper come as a family and eat and have fun without having any boundaries. I thought they may alienate me as I scream at them but they still forget the whole incident. From this, I will try to improve myself. hehe. This friday will be the event day. oh yah. Thought I am nobody but they make me feel like a family haha. 

The feeling

     Its not fair. Time passed so fast. When you enjoy that moment, you feel like time moves on faster pace.. My holidays are over. 4 more days then I need to be back to Kampar. Though I feel happy that I can meet all my housemates again but I am faced with the harsh condition of studying. I am currently an engineering student. My result from my semester 1 also is about to be release. Omg the feeling of vomiting is coming again.

    This holiday I got to hang out with my dearest friends. My first week was my awesome and keep calm high school friends which I had long missed them in Kampar. They are the one who still in touch with me and humor me everyday through whatapps. I really love them . The second week, I went to Berjaya Times Square with another group of friends that I met in UTAR PJ. We got a lot of happy memories there. And the third week, one of my course mate hit me with the harsh reality of studying. He already start studying Japanese. I haven't touch it at all. He is seriously a workaholic wait no.... a study addict. I really miss my first two weeks of holidays.

    I wish most of my holidays were like that. Simple and perfect in many ways....