Monday, December 23, 2013

A Trip to Langkawi

    A couple of days ago, I went to the eagle island which is Pulau Langkawi. Pulau Langkawi is filled with mystical stories from Mahsuri's curse to the Tasik Dayang Bunting; lake that was said to make girls pregnant. My family and I went there by Malindo Air. The airplane tickets were on promotion at that time. We stayed at Citin Hotel. Citin Hotel is a budget hotel that is simple and cheap. But unfortunately, my bed smells like vomit. I guess the last visitor must have vomit there. 

    On the first day, we went to the cable car at the oriental village. the cable car was half priced for malaysian. I took 2 hours to queue but all I can see is mist. Its very sad that I can see the view as the skybridge is closed and the heavy mist is covering it. Besides that, I went to sit on the elephant and feed him. His name is Lasa. my family and I got a complementary coffee in Bolaven Cafe or you can call it the tiger cafe. Its nice seeing a tiger up close while sipping on coffee.

    On the second day, we went to the mangrove tour. I went in the bat cave, fish farm , eagle sightseeing and the beach. The experience was great as I was a city girl and wanted to become an environmental engineer next time. I could see how the ecosystem is supported. Oh I forgot! I went into the crocodile cave also. The crocodile cave was very creepy cause out of 9 boats that tries to enter their, only 1 boat get to enter. The tour guide used to say that there were many crocodile here but they were scared by the boats. On the other hand, I also went to the underwater park. It was quite disappointing as it has less animals.

    On the last day, we went on a city tour. The city tour cost about RM 120 for 4 hours journey around the island. The taxi driver brought us to the eagle statue which is the heart of langkawi and a bird park which was great as you can feed the animals but the maintenance there was horrid. You can smell the bird shit just a stone away. Then, he brought us to the galeri perdana where we can see Tun Dr. Mahathirs' collections. we went to the kraf tangan museum; the craft museum before we go up the airplane to KLIA. I actually quite enjoy this trip. I hope I can go more of this trip!!

Saturday, December 7, 2013

The world is always dangerous

     From young, my mother taught me that the world is evil sometimes. The world is a dangerous place and my parents trained me for years to face the outside world. The world is actually very peaceful but many people complicate it. People deceive, betray and turn to soulless person to get what they want but not what they need. But I am no here to break your hope or something like that, I am trying to tell you that the world will always have these sort of two-faced people. 

My friend was very active in animal shelter projects that she contributed most of her time for it. I used to help her in some of her project. There was once when one of the biggest event finish, she gave me a souvenir to remind me that I had done my best for the abandoned animals that time. Along that souvenir, she gave me a message and it was written on the souvenir. It said “The world is dangerous not because of those who do harm but because of those who look at it and didn’t do anything!”

There was once a car accident where a young girl was knocked down a long time ago in China. But there was nobody who wants to save her due to this she died when rush to the hospital as it was too late. It was reported that the reckless driver hit and ran and almost 20 passerby ignore her. The world is dangerous not because of those who do harm but because of those who look at it and didn’t do anything!

The time I got this souvenir, I cherish it as it finally brings a purpose in my small life! I knew I need to do something in my life as I only live once. That was when I decided to pursue environmental engineering because nobody is defending our mother earth as big corporates reap her apart to get profits for their business. 

Thursday, December 5, 2013

The flute player

I am having a little bit of the writer block today.  Maybe I will just tell you a story. A love story!
                It started with a tune.  A tune where represented the union of two lovers from the past and present day. In their past life, the girl was a peasant girl and the boy was a swordsmen. He was the legend of his time. He was someone whom the community respects a lot. But the girl was just a peasant girl whose feet were not bounded. For a girl with unbounded feet, she will remain as a slave. The boy and girl met in the mountains. The boy was searching for some herbs while the girl was carrying pails of water down the mountain. The boy was playing a tune with his flute after searching for the herb for a long time.
The girl heard the tune and became curious. She tried to find the main source of the flute. She found him but also invited some guests along. Those guests are no friend of man. They are wolves. The girl screamed and ran away from the wolves. The flute player tried to save the girl but the wolves already left a large scar on her face. Her face was bleeding profusely. She cried and dare not return home as she knows her master will hurt her. The flute player took sympathy and took her into his family. She was known as the wolf girl in his family. Sooner the flute player begins to admire her beauty within. He knew he couldn't be with this slave girl but his heart was already with her. He tried reasoning with his family but all failed. He asks the girl for a hand in marriage but the girl knows her duty. He tried explaining to her that he love her for many times and ways.

 Finally, the girl accepted him as she had a crush on him all the while after he saved her. They ran away and started a new life but tragedy struck when they met a witch that envy their love. The witch put a curse on the flute player and if the flute player meets the girl, her scar will start to ache and pain is just not tolerable. The girl doesn't mind the pain as long she can meet with him but the flute player couldn't bear hurting her. He ran away and the night before he told the girl who was sleeping by his side that he will meet her in the next life. The flute player told her that love is not about meeting each other but making sacrifices. In the next life, he says that he will play their tune again. The girl cried in sleep after the flute player left their house. 

My other half

Hi hi, I am back from my study semester!! XP Although I haven't finished my exam but I really felt relieved that my CGPA paper is done. I have lots to tell you guys but first! During the semester, I was sad as I keep seeing many of my friends finding their love ones and I am stuck with myself. I was emo-ing half of my semester. My housemate ask me why am I so desperate for a relationship? Well, sometimes it’s nice to have someone who shares your happiness and sadness. But when you are single, you have nobody to share too. This semester, I really felt alone. I felt the sadness from being alone just like an astronaut stuck in space without anyone to help. 

I was sad until I met a tarot card reader. It must be destiny to see the tarot reader as that day was the first time I went to block K to eat. There is where I met the tarot card reader. I was sad and sick of being alone. I somehow felt like asking this tarot card reader. All the while, I never believe tarot card reading but this change me!!

          Somehow, I felt a force telling me to go try her service. So, I just try. To my amazement, the thing she says about me in the past was so true. Well, she told me that in the past, I search for such love but at one point I was hopeless. She knew until now I had no boyfriend. And in the present she knew I was finding it again as my peers found their other half! I tried not being amazed but deep down I was shocked.

          She also told me not to worry as my other half will be there when I am financially stable. She told me that my other half will think me as a gift from god, an angel that descended down from heaven and I will be his main point in his life. He is a very mature man and a career-minded man. He will be the exact character as me! He is a guy that wants to start a family with me. I was blushing all the way because I knew that someone is there for me!

          Due to this factor, I felt alive again. I knew that I can get true love although I am ugly and fat. I was just happy since that day. No more emo days. She also advises me that if I wait for him, I can get him. I will wait for him!! Wherever you are my other half, I can’t wait to spent an eternity with you.
         


Monday, October 28, 2013

Sorry girl!

Well I am back again, another week. I had my hands full this time of the sem. assignment, reports , comittee meeting and so much more. Well I just wanna talk about two kind of relationship I personally tries to give advise about. Let me tell you exhibit A. He and his girlfriend had been dating since lower six until now. But when I am near him , he will always frus as his girlfriend dont love him as much as he loves her. He was ban to visit her more than 2 weeks. Her girlfriend is a very independent girl and like a large personal space like how a single woman enjoys it. Problem is she has he. I felt pity for the boy as I can see that he loves her more than she loves him and he is trying so hard to get her love back.

Exhibit B is the contrast of two person personality. my friend and her boyfriend had been together since 1 year ago. They just broke off this week. I actually predicted this ending as the boy was controlling the girl and the girl has a bad temper. I know it was the end because the control by the boyfriend was too much and boys or girls no one like to be controlled in life. Thats all and I am happy to say that I am single till now. But a person did ask me "is it because of this differences, you don't dare to start a relationship?" I lied to him and say no but I know it is true.....

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

People you may meet!

     Today, I would like to dedicate this post to the person I used to meet and befriended with but now is a heartless attention seeking bitch. Well, to be frank I don't give a rat ass about this girl but she annoy me too much till I need to tell you how this girl acts in front of everyone to release some steam.

     I met this girl on the first morning of my semester. It was just after a walk with carol. I was quite nervous for the first day of my class. That was the beginning of a troubled friendship. Well, let me explain. This is because I and she are like water and fire. Completely different in personalty and style. I am the gamer girl who studies hard and doesn't give a rat ass about styles, boys and most important I don't act in front of people. But she on the other hand, she thinks that Environmental Engineering is the easiest engineering course so therefore she took it and flirt around. Well she let boys touch her and even let them know how sad and pathetic she was being toyed by her boy crush.

     At first I just think she is a slut but sooner I discover she is in a higher level of bitch level. This is because she plays around with boys. Manipulate them in every sense. Those boys are more stupid. She acts like she is so damn innocent. She kicks me out of the conversation. But that was not the worst of all.

     The worst of all was that she keeps arguing with me and finding fault with me. I had enough. I just ignore her. Then it became worse. She now gossip on how bad I was and how I treated her. But when people ask, I would always give a logic explanation. Well there is a lot of story of her. Maybe I just tell you 3 of them.

    The first scenario is that I was the stationmaster. My game was set that the right side of the team will do set 1 first and the left side will do set 4 first. Problem is set 1 is harder. Her team got set 1 and she kept whining on how unfair it was until even the gathering time. It was such an embarrassment as a 20 year old girl can act as a 8 year old. I just tell her facts but she say I was wasting time. No other team complain about it but she kept whining about it.

    Then the second scenario is when I got better result than her. Instead of being a true friend and congratulate me. She say I didn't deserve the result.

     the third will be on the day we play a killing game. she was the killer. I was killed first. so I shouted yes when she died that round. She said I was unfair again. But the thing is many people also had shouted out yes by me. So, whats your problem bitch?!

Thursday, October 10, 2013

In Kampar peepz!

    Well, I am back to kampar! Sorry for not updating the blog for a whole week i think. I am so sorry!! I recently join as one of the helper for the icebreaking team in my university. Every night I had to go for meeting and test game therefore I couldn't have any energy to write a post about it until now.

    I become one of the station master for a game. That game was look simple when I choose it but it turns out to be more difficult sooner. During the first test game, my station couldn't handle the crowd control. Though I blame myself but I knew some of the problems are cause by the facee who got so excited till they actually broke all the rules. Even the second game test was the same till the extend I had to yell and they call me rough. But to me as a facee, you should learn to control yourself.

    But after all those, I still love the yum cha time where all facee, station master and helper come as a family and eat and have fun without having any boundaries. I thought they may alienate me as I scream at them but they still forget the whole incident. From this, I will try to improve myself. hehe. This friday will be the event day. oh yah. Thought I am nobody but they make me feel like a family haha. 

Friday, October 4, 2013

The feeling

     Its not fair. Time passed so fast. When you enjoy that moment, you feel like time moves on faster pace.. My holidays are over. 4 more days then I need to be back to Kampar. Though I feel happy that I can meet all my housemates again but I am faced with the harsh condition of studying. I am currently an engineering student. My result from my semester 1 also is about to be release. Omg the feeling of vomiting is coming again.

    This holiday I got to hang out with my dearest friends. My first week was my awesome and keep calm high school friends which I had long missed them in Kampar. They are the one who still in touch with me and humor me everyday through whatapps. I really love them . The second week, I went to Berjaya Times Square with another group of friends that I met in UTAR PJ. We got a lot of happy memories there. And the third week, one of my course mate hit me with the harsh reality of studying. He already start studying Japanese. I haven't touch it at all. He is seriously a workaholic wait no.... a study addict. I really miss my first two weeks of holidays.

    I wish most of my holidays were like that. Simple and perfect in many ways....

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Wings

     The feeling of having a wings is just a feeling of freedom. Free from restrain and other boundaries. Able to fly up in the sky where the limit has no boundaries. In this 21st century, people are getting more and more depress. Feel sad over the emotional neglect that society have shown us. The society that tell us to be caring at the same time lashes out brutal insult at non-mainstream thinking. Just a feeling of wings is what I dream of and wish to give people. Here is a poem I compose myself.

worries are like each metal bar created
to hold you down
to form a cage
worries will not let you go
it traps you
it lets you dwell in misery
worries can be cleanse only by
forgetting and forgiving others
creating happy memories
which will then weave to wings
flying to the soaring high as
dreams and hope
can be achieved.

    First time composing. sorry if it is bad hehe!!

Friday, September 27, 2013

A trip to Berjaya Times Square

Today, I woke up feeling tired and with a few of my muscle sprain due to yesterday trip to Berjaya Times Square. It was fun although it was so tired.

    Yesterday, I had to wake up in the early morning just to catch the train to kl sentral and meet my friend there. To reach the monorail train station from kl sentral, we need to travel by foot as the bridge linking them is under construction. Due to that, my friend and I was so blur on how to go there. The information counter just ask us to go down and turn left then right. we follow her instruction but we still got lost. There was a part in the journey that we encounter had many foreign workers and taxi uncles. The taxi uncles could see from our face that we are loss. Instead of helping us they tried to shout at us asking us whether we needed a cab to monorail station and tried to approach us. Talk about rude like hell. We were just two girls lost who knows the world is sometimes bad. We were afraid that the taxi drivers might attack us as their body is definitely bigger than us by double so we ignored them. Then finally google map helped us. We just need to walk to the road along Brickfields college to the monorail station.

    Once we reach there the jalan imbi station which is where Berjaya Times Square is located, there is two ways one we need to go under the monorail and another one go down the stairs. We took the wrong way which was the stairs then detour. Finally, we reach Berjaya Times Square first floor and quickly buy a heart pendant for my other friend as it was her birthday two days ago. There were many selection. Then we meet up with her and bought our theme park tickets. There was no crowd there so we played most of the rides by 2 hours. We played the roller coaster, the dizzy ride, the airplane, the 360 ride, bumper cars and even some baby rides. hehe. The games was fun for all of us. We play and scream like crazy. FYI: I didnt scream a lot but laugh more. My friend scream like crazy in the roller coaster and the 360 rides.

    Well then we come out and eat dubu dubu. We shopped and talk of course. And the best thing of all is the memories from there you get. You will really like it there if you are 140cm above as all need that height to play. Cheers!

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Food Poisoning

     Sorry that I didn't update my blog yesterday. Well its because of the stupid food poisoning that I had yesterday. Do you know what I hate more than period, its fever. Any guess what I hate more than fever, its fever and food poisoning. Fuck the food poisoning!!! Yesterday I vomited 4 times and diarrhea more than 5 times just on the damn contaminated food I ate before. I had to go to the doctor and take 5 different types of medicine: one for stomach pain, diarrhea , gastric, vomiting and antibiotic. Haih life right!

     Actually this food poisoning was not so bad cause the last one I had was worse. Although I didn't vomit but I had diarrhea for 3 days. I prescribed medicine myself. Western or chinese medicine also I had taken but I just keep purging for 3 whole days. The food was eaten by 2 of my other housemate and they also got the same condition as me. I still remember the uncle who sold this to us. He was the uncle who sold chicken rice and has a white van. He also sells those kuih muih. I am never going to eat that store again. Never in my life ! Anyway thanks for hearing me rant about my food poisoning.

Monday, September 23, 2013

Past Life


     Have you ever wonder what your past life would be like? Have wonder whether you were a woman or man? It may be funny but its still a question. A question that I have also ask myself. I wonder it , daydream it and maybe dreamt of my past life a few times.

     Once, I dreamt I was walking and then I heard a sharp siren like the siren you hear when the enemy plane fly past. I started running and running till I fell into the drain and I woke up from my dream. Weird dream but it doesnt look like any of my ordinary dreams as it is not from my era. Maybe some may say its just my imagination but it was really real to me.

     Why am I certain past life happen? It is because we have reincarnation. Reincarnation is when The concept of reincarnation starts when our souls may experience many lifetimes over centuries, maybe even thousands of years -- has been present in virtually every culture since ancient times. The Egyptians, Greeks, Romans and Aztecs all believed in the "transmigration of souls" from one body to another after death. It's a fundamental precept of Hinduism (from Stephen Wagner).

     FYI: In the religious mythology of China, souls are prevented from remembering their past lives by the deity Meng Po, also known as the "Lady of Forgetfulness", who gives them a bittersweet drink that erases all memories before they climb the wheel of reincarnation.

    Many have said that the place where you were shot or killed was your birthmark. Remember I told you on the running dream when a siren was on. How can I fall down so easily if I was running for my life and when I had no obstacle in front of me but a long tar road. I must have been shot or hurt at my leg. Well my leg has a birthmark. It was at the ankle and its how my mom always say she identify me. Again I wonder if my birthmark symbolizes anything of my past life.

    Besides that, the person you see may come from the past life but different in the relationship. They also said that dogs you rear are those people who promise to pay your deed in the past life. The dogs' past life might have promise to protect you till next life. Therefore they turn into dogs. I am not very sure how true are this must its just nice to know.

    Well, try and ask yourself a question have you wonder how your past life was 

Saturday, September 21, 2013

My two grandfathers.

     My two grandfather are no longer in this human world but their legacy stays. Both contrast in personality but I have their genes. They both are mens from the era of wars and brought peace to the chinese people in different ways. I am glad that I know their story and I am glad they were by grandfather despite not able to meet them anymore. I still feels like they are looking after me till now though only one spirit of my grandfather remains on earth and the other one was already reborn based on the intel my family's sifu said.

    Okay ! I will start by my father's father, my ah gong. My ah gong have two name one with the sir name Quek and Kouk but he pass his Quek sir name to my father and uncle. Imagine me having Kuok as my sir name. It must be funny to call me. He was 65 years old when he died due to colon cancer. I was 7 years old when he died. I still have not have fond memory with him. I just remember seeing the photos of him giving me angpows when I was about 5 years old if I am not mistaken. 

    He serve in a Chinese independent school for almost 20 years as a headmaster but the irony is that I am a banana. He was the kindest headmaster the school had. My father once told me that my ah gong paid the tuition fees for poor kids who had no money to do education. He fought for the Chinese education in Malaysia and succeeded. He was a sensible and kind man never to raise his temper at  his children. 

     My father once told me a joke of my ah gong that he was only fined by the police once in his life. It was the day my brother was born and he had no parking in the nearby hospital. He was fined based on his parking. He was too happy that the first son of Quek was born. That event was so hilarious as my ah gong always obey the law but for once he did that. 

     On the contrary my gong gong which is my mother side grandfather used to be a head of gangster in Perak. He was a true China man as he and his father came to Malaysia at British colonial times. His father and my gong gong left their family to find better income for their family as all of their crops was eaten by locust. When they reach Malaysia, my gong gong had to bluff his age to find a job. He was 11 that time but the 'tarik beca' group are only hiring 12 and above boys. therefore my gong gong true age when he died was 80 but in his ic was 79. He had two age.

     When the japanese imperial army came and conquer the land of Malaya my gong gong was tortured as he was suspected to be an intel for the anti- japanese group. He was 14 at that time. It scarred him. He wanted to protect the chinese people and he did he became the Tai Lo for a gangster group in Perak. My uncle told me that every hawker there is willing to pay for his food and drinkds for his protection. He also told me a story on how my gong gong actually save his friends daughter from becoming a prostitute in Penang. I can fell the courageous act of my gong gong. Till now his friend owe a debt to him.

      My gong gong and poh poh also had a very nice love story which i may include later in my blog. I truly love their love story. My father told me my gong gong loves me the most as i was the oldest there. When I was little, I was pushed in the pram by him until I fall asleep every evening. He suffered stroke for 12 years and pass away one night in his sleep. 

     Both my grandfather contrast in life and personality but they remain their goal which is to protect the people and my community. I inspire to be them someday.



Friday, September 20, 2013

Introduction about me !!

Well, today i felt like introducing myself. well i am just a very simple girl who actually have some hatred to perfume and fashion items. I am those kind of girl who doesn't like to go to shopping or if i had to go i would be in the food section hehe. GO FOOD!!

     To tell you all the truth, I am the 'manly' type of girl. I love playing pokemon cards and collect them. I play boy games like basketball that normally girls dont play. Plus, I am also the type of girl who loves to play rpg. FYI rpg is role-playing games. I do have an account in League of Legends. I love using Miss Fortune, Ahri and even Brand. I love mages and support cause normally that what i am good at. I play left 4 dead just for the fun of it. I love killing zombies and seeing how they die. sorry maybe too violent there hehe.
   
     Besides that, my life purpose is to go to the third world country and build homes for them. this is because of my name. i was given a name that wants me to be a useful person in life, community and maybe the world. My name ends with 'ai'. Well many might say it will get love or something like that but the real true meaning of that 'ai' is a kind of herb that is used in the chinese medicine. Now you guys must wonder why i was given such a funny or weird name. Well, its because my grandmother wanted me to be useful for the society and my country. This is because the name 'ai' is a herb that helps cure disease and face many difficulties being accepted into the modern western medicine. my grandmother wanted me to be useful and at the same time able to resist the daily life challenges in life. Seriously, that is why I want to contribute my energy to save the world therefore i studied environmental engineering. Before i die on my deathbed, i want to remember the people i helped. I dont want to remember how much money i earned but that my energy was well spent in somewhere.

     I know that i have no luck in love. thats for sure! any guys look at me, they will think i am just an overweight girl that is quite barbaric but i dont give a damn cause this guys are not worth it! if they truly love you or even admire you they see the inner beauty of a miss independent like me. well, anyway i dont hope for love as it is not really my life purpose. I would not find for it but let it come to me naturally cause those are the true one. I will never be those whore that find love and risk their sanity for it.

Well that all but before i leave i would like to share with you guys neyo miss independent..... cause i love his lyrics hehe

To miss Teng and Siau


To be very frank with you all, I actually am really glad that you guys are my friends. Though you guys might be more innocent than I expected but I love you guys. Wait don't take it so literal. I love you guys as friends. Again to remember how you guys its kinda few sweet moments in Utar PJ. Okay let me start from the beginning. when i first met ms teng, i thought she was a very (sorry to use) nerdy student. she studies excellent perform excellent in class. i remember the first day, i sat next to her in ms bong class. she was a very attentive student but i was the total opposite. somehow and sooner, we got to know each other and i know why she tries to study so hard. Her parents want her to excel well so she tries her best. her principle in studying is completely different from me. i want to study so i can be more independent in life and i want to help the world in the best way before the grim reaper comes and find me. i used to laugh at how funny and innocent she was. sooner we form a study group. we try our best to study but as you guys know it is truly impossible to ur study with a great fren. thru her i met ms siau. this girl makes me chuckles every single time i am with her. this is cause no matter what joke i had on her, she will not retaliate me. she would just laugh with me. its nice to see that people let you laugh the way you are especially when your laughter is different from how society presume a girl to laugh. confession: i laugh quite barbaric. she is quite beautiful actually but i dont know why guys havent dated you. Seriously guys what the hell is your problem? Ms siau still talk to me. actually she inspire me to write this blog when i was feeling angry towards myself and the coursemates i kinda have. i only realized how much writing i mean blogging soothes my mind but i only get to know you guys in such a short time of my life. i hope we can see again. its been 5 months since we met. thought i have not met friends like you in kampar but i know in this world both of you meant a lot to me as friends. if either one of you are sad or angry or even felt betrayed, i hope you can read back my post about both of you and just SMILE!!

3 years of not touching blog. im back


Hi, i am back after 3 years of not touching the blog i just feel like it since my great friend ask me whether i had a blog or not.. well my studies is now great. i am doing what i really love. thought some may think environmental engineering is boring but to me it is truly fun. friends you can say it come and goes but the true one stay in your heart. you hear that miss siau you are really a great friend. well if you wanna stalk me and hear some entertaining story from me you can come find me here in my blog. will update things. i promise i will try and expose my real true feeling in this blog. its all raw emotions. for all the hater , f*** you. i know i am an emotional ass but i dont seek attention at all like the bitch in my course. i only tell this blog to my true friends and yes i do wish they can be with me all the time but this is life. like wat my mom says this is life you gotta live it. i remember a proverb, you were born with pain from your mom, you die with pain, pain follows you but it is how you revert them. so yea life!